Why?

I just want to scream at people sometimes. I hate it, repeat HATE IT when all people can do is be hacked off and foul to other people. Take a happiness pill. Go listen to happy music. Go eat sugar. Go do something to get rid of that blasted grouchy dissposition! AH!
Ok, so in an attempt to NOT be like those people that drive me insane, I will stop focusing on the negative and try to remember the things that I like about those people. Thank you and goodnight...
Miss E.

Beautiful Letdown

Where I'm at is a very interesting, confusing place. Life is going a thousand miles per hour and yet, sometimes I feel like I am stuck in a huge pile of mud. I find myself having to prioritize, which is something I hate doing. I have always been the girl that wants to do everything, all the time, whenever I want to. Unfortunately, life doesn't work that way. Bummer. Right now, I have thirty plus books that I want to read, twenty plus paintings rolling around in my head, yet to be painted, and stories and songs of my life and other's are still bouncing off the edges of my skull waiting to be written down. Not to mention all the time that I wish I had to sit in the dark and listen to music. There just doesn't seem to be enough time in the day. What can I do, school has to get done and so does work. I will say, though, that when I get to hang out with my friends for even just a hour or so, life is sweeter. Take for instance this past Tuesday night. I went out with Peter, Sean, and Jared. We sat at Dion's for two hours and ate pizza, drank soda, talked about life (the sports aspect of life, mostly :D), and were generally stupid. It was a blast. It was calm and crazy at the same time. I love those guys. Each one of them has taught me something about myself and I'm better because of it. I love that God gives us lots of people who compliment different areas of our lives.

So, yeah. This has been a rambler post, but that's ok. Everybody needs to ramble sometimes, right? Of course right...(if you've seen Fiddler on the Roof, you'll get that. If you haven't seen it, you are a deprived individual who needs to go rent fiddler on the roof) So long, folks.
Miss E.

Beautiful Letdown by Switchfoot
It was a beautiful letdown
When I crashed and burned
When I found myself alone
Unknown and hurt
It was a beautiful letdown
The day I knew
That all the riches this world had to offer me
Would never do
In a world full of bitter pain
And bitter doubts
I was trying so hard to fit in
Fit in, until I found out
I don't belong here (I don't belong)
I don't belong here (I don't belong)
I will carry a cross and a song
Where I don't belongI don't belong
It was a beautiful letdown
When You found me here
Yeah, for once in a rare blue moon
I see everything clear
I'll be a beautiful letdown
That's what I'll forever be
And though it may cost my soul
I'll sing for free
We're still chasing our tails
In the rising sun
In our dark water planet still spinning
In a direction no one wins
No one's won.
See, I don't belong here (I don't belong)
Well, I don't belong here, I don't belong
I will carry a cross
With a song where I don't belong
I don't belongI don't belong here (I don't belong)
No, I don't belong here, I don't belong
I'm gonna set side
And set sail
For the kingdom come, kingdom come
Your kingdom come
Won't you let me down, yeah
Let my foolish pride forever let me down
Ah, Easy living, you're not much like the name
Easy dying, you look just about the same
Would you please take me off your list
Easy living please c'mon and let me down
We are a beautiful letdown
Painfully uncool
The church of the dropouts
The losers, the sinners, the failures, and the fools
What a beautiful letdown
Are we salt in the wound
Hey, let us sing one true tune
I don't belong here (I don't belong)
It feels like I don't belong here, yeah
It goes like I don't belong here
I don't belong (I don't belong)
Won't you let me down (I don't belong)
C'mon and let me down (I don't belong)
You always let me down (I don't belong)
So glad that I'm let down (I don't belong)
C'mon and let me down (I don't belong)
'Cause I don't belong here
Won't you let me down!

It's my birthday, we're gonna party like it's my birthday.
CAUSE IT IS! HA

Soooo, this is picture of me about a year ago, and I like it, so I am putting it on my blog. Yay!

As requested...

Well, as requested. I am writing a blog.
So today was Amanda's b'day!! YAY!!

When I was driving home from the mall, I stopped at the Irving/Golfcourse light and noticed a bunch of birds flying off of a roof. So you may be thinking, "So what, Evie, birds fly off of things all the time...", but I noticed that when one bird flew back to the roof, all of the other birds eventually did so, too. Now, I know all about the fact that birds have a dominant, leader bird, just like most other animals have a dominant leader animal, but this particular instance of birds all flying back reminded me of people. I'll explain:

We have all, at some point in our lives been really gung-ho about something. We are jazzed and excited about progressing our passion and for a while, we really fly. But then, one person makes some comment about something like, how what you are doing is ineffectual or a waste of time, and we slowly drop down in our flight. Then another person adds on to what the last person said and we fall even lower. Eventually, when everyone is falling back down to there stagnant, resting place, it is really hard to maintain that flight of love for something that you think/thought could change something for the better.

So I have given you a bunch of "bird" analogies, but my point is (this applies to me, even more than you could possibly know), that even when all the other people in your life begin to mucky muck the thing that you feel passionately about: pray for strength, be resilient, and keep on trucking for the passion that God has put in you.

Alrighty, so that my promised post. :)

Miss E.
P.S. Funny how God can use a pile of birds to make you think, huh?

You can't shut me up and you won't shut me down.
Miss E.

So, for the past week, I have been having a seriously emo time. I just can't believe how ridiculously emolicious I was being, the sad part was, there was nothing licious about it. Just plain old, obnoxious. That's what it was. Oh well, life goes on and I tell you one thing, it's a good thing that God loves emo people. Anyway...
I have some song lyrics that I am gonna write here because I like them, so yeah. :)

PLENTY OF PAPER by EISLEY
Something's growing under that wing
I think a face is dawning
Oh no the books are growing faces
and you're lost quite classically
With your nose in a book
and it seems so fitting
and perhaps this is the end we've sought after for so long
and perhaps now it's done
Cause we've found all the dire dreams
of men and machines and
Turned them all around our
Identical hands
Composing our commands
I cut the moon in half
and stuck a piece through my hair
It made the back of my head glow
Golden yellow and then I took
Ten stars on sticks and placed them in my small metal
Bucket and I gave the other half of the moon to you
Ooh, so you wouldn't forget me while I'm gone
Cause we found all the dire dreams
of men and machines and
Turned them all around to
Enjoy them and benefit ourselves
Our paperback books, our charming looks
Our identical hands
Composing our commands
And oh my love
We can live on the sun
and wouldn't we be attractive
Riding in our shiny motor cars
With eyeglasses full of stars
and plenty of paper for scenery paintings
'Cause we found all the dire dreams
of men and machines and
Turned them all around to
Enjoy them and benefit ourselves
Our paperback books, our charming looks
Our identical hands
Composing our commands