God is Incredible.

I cannot get over that fact.
His timing is perfect.
His ways really are higher than ours.
His love is perfect.
His justice is complete.
His mercy never ceases to amaze.
His arms are always open and, the last few hours especially, I am in complete awe that my God truly is EVERYTHING He says He is.

Evie B)

The Colors Inside My Head Are Swirling

I wonder who reads this blog. I have it open to the public, so I guess anybody could just stumble upon it, but I really do want to know. I think it would be really funny if one day, I bumped into somebody that recognized my picture from the blog. That would be great.

I am officially back in NM. I drove up to Salt Lake on Wednesday and drove back on Saturday. I' m still kind of tired from it. All yesterday, my legs were all bouncing from being in the car for eleven-ish hours. It just starts to feel like you're riding no matter what you do if you drive that long. Oh well, like I said, I'm officially (long term) back, and I don't have to drive up there for a long while. I'm happy about that. This last trip was just a confirmation that moving back was the right thing to do. I was talking to my buddy, Matt, and he pointed out to me that if I hadn't of gone to Salt Lake, I would have always wondered. That is such a good point, one that had not occurred to me. So, thank you Matt, for saying that to me. The past three, going on four, months have been the strangest of my life. I have decided that the older I get, the weirder things get. I am excited about the weirdest, though. For the first time in my life, I am by myself, with no dictations being put on me, and it's truly fantastic. I have really been enjoying getting to hang out with new people and nourishing relationships. I learned so much about myself in the SLC time, stuff that I wasn't aware of. There was also stuff that I was completely and utterly aware of and I got enough down time to understand why I am that way. Being forced to learn about myself was difficult. I had to deal with some of the garbage that I had been awesome at holding onto. I am by no means perfect, never will be, but I feel another part of me has been healed. God is good, that is the understatement of the ages.

That is the thing that has been replaying my mind, that God is good. My brain works that way, I tend to ruminate on one topic, sometimes good, sometimes bad, sometimes, most times, both. I stopped trying to figure out why my mind works that way, but that is something I will not know. In the long run, it doesn't matter why I work that way, it is me and I'm good with that. God makes everybody a certain way so that we can introduce new ideas into another individuals life. It just goes to show that God isn't dull. He is very unique and takes enough time to weave different thought patterns. Billions on earth, and each one with a distinct personality. I don't have a way to calculate how long it takes for a personality to be built, but I'm thinking its a while. Wow. Cool, God; thanks for the time and effort.

Ok, that is all I have for now. Love you, folks. Bye Bye


Evie B)

P.S. Fleet Foxes + driving through fog and snow covered mountains = a tiny glimpse of heaven.

Revelations.

Tonight, I sit in complete awe of the way that God works in my life. I don't deserve His uncompromising love, and never will, but He is always there waiting to take me back. Wow. I will never understand that, but, you know, I'm thankful for that too.
Miss E. B)

I've been dirtier than you'll ever know

I just realized last week, that for the first time in three years, I'm at peace with pretty much everyone in my life. It's good and incredibly strange at the same time, mostly good.
Evie B)

Something New. . .

I have decided that in life, sometimes you just have to watch. Watch the people in your life and their daily lives before you dare open your mouth to voice an opinion. Not enough people watch before stating an opinion and they stick their foot in their collective mouth.

I got my wisdom teeth out on Monday and haven't been able to talk much for the last few days.
I have been doing a lot of "helpful watching", as my Mom calls it, and it is really amazing how much you pick up in the little tone differences that people exchange. I've gotten to know people just by hearing those little differences and it has opened my eyes to so many things.

I have learned a lot in the past week because I have been listening more than I've been talking.
Wowsers. People should try it.

Evie B)

P.S. I really love how God just whacks you upside the head in the silences.

. . .

I'm well into the next stage of my life, so why am I wondering what will happen next?

I want contentment. Desperately.

Hmm

So, something big is going on right now. I'm not ready to tell everyone yet, but soon. I promise, soon. Ok, talk to all my homies later, buh bye.
Evie B)