Response to Marissa

Yeah, it was intense. It was an altogether intense night. I watched a movie about Nazism in America and it broke my heart even more, so that is why I started writing.

Well, I know one reason why people automatically think that Mexicans are bad people in the South and that's because a lot of Mexicans come and work in the factories and that makes the white people angry because that means that the Mexican people "took" the jobs. I don't agree with that at all, because the country we live in has lots of libraries and any able bodied person who is looking for work in the first place, I don't care if he is purple, should get off his haunches, educate himself and go pursue the job that he wants. But anyway, I do know the whole "job stealing" is big in the South.


In El Paso, there was a TON of gang activity, so there was a lot of racism being fueled by that. There were also a lot of border disputes going on and if you want to know more about that from someone who was living in them, ask me and I'll tell you. There are some more things that I have seen concerning Mexican/White relations, but that is a whole 'nother blog and if you wanna hear about, again, just lemme know and I will get to typing. I know that there are serious issues between American Indians and Mexicans up here, but I'm not quite sure what all of that is about.

But, I guess the best answer to why people automatically assume things about Mexicans is just stupidity and down right laziness. Hatred/fear does go hand in hand with that, sometimes, but the whole hatred/fear thing is another topic that usually runs very deep. So for the sake of time and space, I will talk about stupidity and laziness.


It is much easier to sit and judge than to take the time to form a well researched opinion. Instead of taking the time to get to know someone as a person, people who are plagued with racism decide that the people in question aren't worthy of their time and blow them off and call them all of the horrible, stereotypical names that they can think of, which I will not be mentioning, but you get the picture. One thing that I have noticed is that when people call other people names like the N word, even people of the same race, all they are really doing is fueling the stereotype and teaching people of every other race that is ok to call them the same thing.

I think that stupidity and laziness are really two key reasons for why racism is still so rampant in our culture today. Lets face it, Americans are lazy, and no, it isn't just Americans, but I live in America and know first hand and am included, so I will stick to talking about the culture that I know about. For the most part, Americans just want everything handed to them. We (notice that I say we) don't take the time to learn because it is easier to assume. So we just sit there and assume and form opinions around what we think and most of the time, what we think is on the opposite end of the spectrum from what God thinks. Sadly, this attitude encompasses our entire way of thinking, not just concerning race relations. So there's another solution, start thinking like God thinks, and you will start to see people for people, regardless of what color they are and hopefully you will begin to undergo and major attitude upheavel.

So, Miss, I hope that some of that may have answered your question.
Miss E.

I have seen too much pain. I have seen enough lives go down the wrong side of the road. I have heard of friends being shot, families being torn apart, and lives being lost. I am sick of hearing the stories of how an older brother came home one year and told his little brother, a dear friend of mine, that he had turned into a little white boy and was not living hard enough. My friend subsequently fell into a cocaine habit and renounced a good deal of his white friends and some of his Mexican ones. People that loved him and still do. And for what?


We as human beings, not as black, white, yellow, or red, must learn to live together as people. We are all valuable. There is none that is better than another. We can't go on hating the other because of stereotypes which are almost all of the time, false. We have to educate ourselves in what God thinks about things. If you don't want to go that far, just look and see that yes, we do look different, and yes, there are differences in some of the ways we live and speak, but break us down and we are the same! We hustle to make ends meet. We love our families. We love our children. We all bleed the same blood. Hate cannot bind us anymore. There have been too many deaths. So much beautiful potential wasted and for what? A side of the street? A bag of drugs? A skin color? An opinion that was dealt with too strongly in the first place? It has to stop. Rage will not burn within me because of your skin. Prejudice will no longer rule my speech or thought. I am going to except people for the beautiful individuals that they are. Individuals that God has created.

I will be the first to tell you that it is easy to joke around with friends about being gansta. It's easy to make little jokes like "It's because I'm Mexican isn't it?" when we don't get something our way. It's so easy and it seems so harmless at the time, but I will also tell you that after a year of those remarks, you find yourself believing them. Don't let them creep into your vocabulary. There are better words, there are better descriptions.

Life is too short to wallow in hatred. Hatred doesn't change anything. No matter how many people you kill for the man who killed your brother, someone will always have to repay you for having killed their brother. It is a long, vicious cycle and at the end of the road, everybody ends up dead. IT IS NOT WORTH IT! Go to God. Get out of the cycle and fall into the arms that accept you no matter what. Get to know God and what He has said in His word and you will soon find that the life that God offers is one of forgiveness and love. He is the ultimate freedom from hatred. God is freedom.


HATRED WILL NOT TAKE UP RESIDENCE IN THIS LIFE.

Ok, so my Queen Obvious moment of the day is that life is really surprising!
Miss E.

How?

How is it that when you get to yell and rant about something, when you are done, you feel cleansed? I don't get this phenomenon and I'm not sure I ever will. I got to talk to someone tonight about how badly they hurt me, I got to ask why, I got to say that what they did was not a nice thing to do to someone that they said they loved, I got release. I'm not completely free from the regret and pain of past stupid decisions concerning that person yet, but having done that tonight really put me closer. The amazing part is the person took it, the person knew how he'd screwed up and took the questions, answered most of them, and apologized. Even went so far as to tell me that I was right. Wow. I was just not expecting this tonight. At all.
Miss E

Song I Wrote

Ok, so I wrote a song tonight. Hope you enjoy! If you want to hear me sing it, cool, it doesn't have chords yet, I will get one of my wonderful guitar playing friends to help me figure some out, :)

Break Me written by me on 8:48p.m. on December 6, 2006.
I walk outside and
I see You in the trees
I feel You in the breeze
Your peace it washes over me
I step back inside
And the only thing I find Is more of You

And as I walk through this life
You've given to me
Everyday I see more of just how much
You love me
So rob me of my pride
Draw me to Your side
And just hold me
Father, hold me

(Chorus)
Come and take this life You gave me
I know I need Your hand to guide me through
Take the fears that hold me back
Help me gain the things I lack
For you, oh Father, break me

You've given me my hopes, my dreams
Your glory shines through the schemes that hold me down
You take the pain and hurt away
and wrap me in the love that fixes more than I can say

(Bridge)
And I know I don't deserve that love
I know I could never earn that love
But I need You here to fill the empty spaces inside of me
Oh, I know I'll never understand
Just how you can use me
But I know this is world is hurting
And they need to know Your mercy, So

Repeat Chorus 2x
I walk outisde and
I see You in the trees
I feel You in the breeze
And Your peace it washes over me again.

So, it's really interesting how God works. This week has been really good, things have been falling into place where they are supposed to be. God is good, I'll just say that.
Miss E.
Live and Let Go

Ok, so, this song is called Everything. It was written by Lifehouse and I LOVE IT! It's playing in the background of the video that's playing.

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You still my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in?
Take me deeper now?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need,
you're everything, everything.
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Peter, thank you for reminding me about this song!

Yay, it's a blog posting!

Yay for me! I have a blog now!