The Colors Inside My Head Are Swirling

I wonder who reads this blog. I have it open to the public, so I guess anybody could just stumble upon it, but I really do want to know. I think it would be really funny if one day, I bumped into somebody that recognized my picture from the blog. That would be great.

I am officially back in NM. I drove up to Salt Lake on Wednesday and drove back on Saturday. I' m still kind of tired from it. All yesterday, my legs were all bouncing from being in the car for eleven-ish hours. It just starts to feel like you're riding no matter what you do if you drive that long. Oh well, like I said, I'm officially (long term) back, and I don't have to drive up there for a long while. I'm happy about that. This last trip was just a confirmation that moving back was the right thing to do. I was talking to my buddy, Matt, and he pointed out to me that if I hadn't of gone to Salt Lake, I would have always wondered. That is such a good point, one that had not occurred to me. So, thank you Matt, for saying that to me. The past three, going on four, months have been the strangest of my life. I have decided that the older I get, the weirder things get. I am excited about the weirdest, though. For the first time in my life, I am by myself, with no dictations being put on me, and it's truly fantastic. I have really been enjoying getting to hang out with new people and nourishing relationships. I learned so much about myself in the SLC time, stuff that I wasn't aware of. There was also stuff that I was completely and utterly aware of and I got enough down time to understand why I am that way. Being forced to learn about myself was difficult. I had to deal with some of the garbage that I had been awesome at holding onto. I am by no means perfect, never will be, but I feel another part of me has been healed. God is good, that is the understatement of the ages.

That is the thing that has been replaying my mind, that God is good. My brain works that way, I tend to ruminate on one topic, sometimes good, sometimes bad, sometimes, most times, both. I stopped trying to figure out why my mind works that way, but that is something I will not know. In the long run, it doesn't matter why I work that way, it is me and I'm good with that. God makes everybody a certain way so that we can introduce new ideas into another individuals life. It just goes to show that God isn't dull. He is very unique and takes enough time to weave different thought patterns. Billions on earth, and each one with a distinct personality. I don't have a way to calculate how long it takes for a personality to be built, but I'm thinking its a while. Wow. Cool, God; thanks for the time and effort.

Ok, that is all I have for now. Love you, folks. Bye Bye


Evie B)

P.S. Fleet Foxes + driving through fog and snow covered mountains = a tiny glimpse of heaven.